Saturday, May 28, 2011
Today is graduation day! Finally graduated from SP after 3 years. well graduation was like hi, take pictures, take cert, make parents happy, take more pictures and bye. yea this type of thing.
Anyway on to more matters of the heart. Hmmmmmm,
2 days ago on thursday i was supposed to go out with D for dinner. but well she was tired and cancelled it lah. somehow I just knew that it was going to get cancelled. like somewhere in my mind told me " dont bother too much, she's going to cancel it anyway." true enuff.
But it got postponed to tml. so i'm also not putting so much hope into it also. Just see how it goes lor. Then there is also this mind fking problem where by i keep thinking. " Is she just using me / am I just trying to be of "help" this type of thing.
So i'm in a dilemna now. I mean i wont regret spending XXX amount on D. But the thing is even if i spend XXX amount I can never be of something in her life, maybe not even just a normal friend. But then u see when u wan her to be happy u also wont spending that XXX amount of $_$. So ya lor, I can even forgo all my drinking sessions to just make her happy. I would rather spend the money to do things with her then go out with my buddies to....... =D
Am I dumb? So many of my friends already say give up and yet I still do this. Somemore i'm not even on her mind. She's more into another guy that has like 100 girls to choose from. So is this wat we call unfair life? I really dont know what to do. I can tell her 100 jokes and she laugh once. That guy can tell her 1 joke and she laughs at it a 100 times. So ya. Fk this shit.
I'm not handsome. I dont have a hot figure. I dont have $_$. I have really nothing to offer compared to other guys actually. Somemore i forgot how to even sweet talk a girl lah. Sometimes when you do it too strongly its wierd. But when u dont, u fail damn badly also.
Really..... What to do?
Fight on Saturday, May 28, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
screw my life finish.
honestly ah guys. like u all said. Just give up. seriously just give up man. wtf lah srs should have listen to ben that day and dun bother anymore then i wont be feeling so fked up now.
Fight on Sunday, May 22, 2011
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Looks like its been a month since this blog's been updated.
Anyway.
Celebrated my 20th bday at a chalet. spent more time sleeping than drinking.
Teen games got 2nd =( should have been 1st like last year but well....
Starting work at ITE dover as an admin clerk or smth like that.
Appreciated $_$ when i worked at spgg. I mean i learn alot at spgg cuz of all the shit that i had to go through. not say alot but well lesson learnt.
New batch of year 1s coming in soon.
I'll be graduating & i can finally drink at the pub in SPGG! haha
And maybe its time to really just be myself and have fun trying to jio people =D
till dunno which month again.
Bye =D
Fight on Sunday, May 01, 2011
