Monday, September 29, 2008

back from work... today i did quite alot of work in the morning.... in the end they expected me to finish by 5pm but i finished by 3?? well imagine this task....
u are given an empty excel sheet.... the company staff list tgt with their "admin no."
the boss asked u to access a system database to fill up the computer Name model n serial no.
using the serial no. u have to find warranty dates for each com....

First Glance.... seems kinda easy.... 80 staff members.... BUT each of them hsa an average 3 coms each..... so imagine man.... from blank excel sheet to abt 240 lines of informations..... by the end of it.... i really slept at the office lolol....

then rushed home to watch World 10 ball championships on ESPN!!! lolool sucky coverage lor no score board no nth.... only " balls pocketed" visual... zzzz.....

realised mum spoiled my day early in the morning in the car " see lah last time do so many things make so many sacrifice for siewhong now u see...." MONDAY lei!!! n u do this to me T_T

for those of u wondering abt the chain email i sent out.... dont worry i dont believe in chain emails n wether its gg to come true * crossing fingers* hoping it comes true becuz i really wana talk to her lolol.... but if u guys wonder.... that email came indirect from her der sometimes i wonder.... i did nearly all thoes things to her.... did she feel anything??? haiix.... for now i know its her exam... shall not talk to her or anything.... wishing her all the best.... and eliza <---- if she even reads this blog.... i doubt siewhong reads this blog still after that break up so why do i still post??

to my pri sch bros.... one day we should mahjong n drink beer until we got dead like that time .....

Labels: Wishing Her All The Best In The Exams

ok today did nth slacked then suddenly bro come down use com beside me when i'm playing ended up kena scolded by mum... " ur brother is studying!! dont distract him" i was like wtf he's playing instead of studying lah.... then fed up got off the com.... called leo go play pool lucky he can if not i sure damn sian for the rest of the day....

went to century with him lost 5-4 on 9 ball n 2-1 n 8 ball.... i think unlucky day today?? haha all the shots abit off zzzzzzzzzz ah well shall practice more this week haha $3/hr for me lolol..... came home watched f1 kinda exciting lolol not a big F1 fan but its just saying that even the top drivers have bad days..... massa was on top but his pit stop screwed him upside down....

i dont know why.... i dont know why am i feeling like that??.... its so hard to forget u.... when u once said.... " siewhong is unique and only special...." was this wat u meant?? forgetting u is so damn hard!!! arghh i dont know sometimes i wonder... what really went wrong??

Labels: We All Have Ups And Down

Saturday, September 27, 2008

okk lets see today did nth woke up quite late 11am lolol father drag me out of bed.... long time since he did that =.= then aaron called me say hj not gg then end up we go play pool....

aaron won me lolol 9-6 the score but we played 8 ball not 9 ball.... haha today i think its just unlucky day?? haha but i'm pretty sure i will catch up to him soon.... unlike a few months ago where he pawned me str8 flat lolol

then went to makan n i'm back home!! lolol

today i talked to eliza abt presents n stuff n wondering... everytime wana do smth abt bday must ask her lolol that time theresa.... now her... well at least i kind boy buying her a dam belated bday present lolol...

option 1 meet her
option 2 help me pass to her
option 3 ask teck pass to her

i dono why but i think i can meet her.... ben that time said " i can buy her present but i cant imagine myself getting her" or smth like that.... same theory here lolol

Labels: I Lost To Aaron 9-6

ok went for work today.... as its friday i tot can wear shorts n slipper but ended up kena scolded lolol sad sia me T_T then reached work had to do alot of crap then the 1st assignment of the day.... activate blackberry phone weeee 1st time i play with that phone sia n i tot they were gg to give it to me lolol haha then went for lunch at temesak club...



the canteen not opened so i practiced my pool lor... this whole week it seems i'm practising like siao... but i know i'm improving i can feel it!! haha today i thrashed my mum lolol we played one game but i cleared 4 balls on my 1st turn haha so happy i know i'm gg to be a pro soon but wether anot to play it as a career i guess no.... sports in sgp cant make it....



went back to office they had bday celebration n its was only ice cream n cake zzzzz i tot was like some buffet like in the other branch but its just ice cream n cake.... lolol haha then went home soon after that =)



then played dota 1st time in garena i played the match until abt 100 mins?? long match haha unlike the previous games i played were AI with siva <--- Dota Addict... aaron <---- nth to do... HJ <---- bored?.... lolol then leo told me abt the slippers n stuff.....



oh well i just wana talk but u dont seem intrested... ask me to give up = i dont know but i will not.... haiix i dono wat to say or do.... this love sensation is just too much for me.... i got a feeling ur the one.... my sub conscience even have you in the dreams n stuff... its not like me to be like this.... i dono wat to say.... i dont msg u everyday cuz if i did i would be like a stalker? if wish i could msg u everyday but that would be like treating u as my gf which is not.... i just wana hear smth from her..... i dont know why am i feeling this way after so long....

Labels: Even My Sub Concience Says So

Friday, September 26, 2008

today's work damn tiring lah i had to do alot of stuff from ytd then yea managed to complete everything on time today =) haha then mummy fetch me home to makan then i bathed then quickly change cuz we gg airport fetch daddy!!! haha 4 weeks nvr see him ler lolol its just that i running out of pocket money soon =) i'm evil haha....

but he's flight go delayed so we go NSRCC which is a country club lolol but i'm a member haha n i practised pool at the cost of alot of money.... so i really concentrated alot today n i myself think i have dramatically improved by alot.... haha maybe one day if i'm really in to this sport i will buy my own gear like wat i did for bowling.... but now my gears all collecting dust lolol..... mummy won me 1 game cuz of 6 tyco shots i LL there also.... but 2nd game i thrashed her lolol i'm an evil son..... weeeeee then fetch daddy ate supper n now i'm preparing to slp... tmr is slacker day i hope *prays damn hard*

well last paragraph.... today i tot i saw her mum.... but come to think of it i can recall so much of how her mum looks like... maybe her dad i will but not the mum.... i so miss her.... but wat i can do?? haiix if u gave me one chance i will crash that wall between us n get u..... i'm desperate to get u back.... i feel like a loser now...... haiix

Labels: Give Me One Chance And I Will Crash The Wall And Get You

Thursday, September 25, 2008

damn tired today work load is increasing... tmr got more crap to do... zzzz but i wan the money to enjoy haha no gf now means $900 to myself n not to her but i wish i had her back.....

well the days go past so slow... i wana msg but i just think " will u find me irritating?" everyday i just wish i could msg her but i have to think.... i wan her back but now is her exam period..... even my sub conscious also thinks of her.... zzzzz is she really the one?? i think so.... my mind n heart has nvr been like this b4 after so long.... well maybe she's the one? i was so sure until she had to do it to me.... haiix.... well tmr work again!!! yea time to slp damn fucking tired these few days

Labels: She's The One =)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

My Work Table

ok today went for work.... did the same stuff i did last week lolol the boss was kinda kind to me today.... but the small boss nvr came haha so the guy was very kind lei =) haha lolol then leo called me ask me go play pool.... =)

ok pool.... the score is.....





poor leo haiix he is suay lah... not that i pro but just more of he suay haha even 8 ball i also won him lolol.... then the girl at the nxt table woots =) lolol but her face ugly haha....

reached home n xy talked to me.... intresting convo with him.... he talked abt love n sex n bla bla n he say i'm responsible man due to my ideals lolol haha then he say smth abt her n my undying love lolol kinda think of it.... i'm now the siao da bor instead of her... i really miss her that much haiix... is it so hard to be tgt? just becuz we are dif sch?? i wana say alot of things but i shall just keep it to myself.... even if i'm drunk i dont think i will say it.... lolol n i have nvr been drunk b4 except that time when we over played the drinks lolol....




well today i went to the other branch for work at science park.... well the staff there like to play with me haha except for some... keep asking me cheem question like pulse line wether its analog or digital.... i tell them digital.... lolol if i'm wrong gl hf to them... then yea got this one girl the body shape damn swee sia but boobs damn small haha.... weet weet then lunch went temask club to makan with mummy lolol after tat completed work then went off to clementi rc to meet alan....

so played race to 9 with alan... he's my team mate from id4.... haha but now the team inactive all chiong sua pool.... lolol he wana buy stick n stuff but he lost 9-7 to me haha then we laugh like cock through out the whole time lolol....

exams are here for u.... stress will get into u.... smth smth smth u.... lols well good luck.... i know u wont read this at all but just wishing all MI ppl good luck for exams escpecially jiahao... lolol my good gay buddy..... i hope i could do smth after ur exams... i just wish i can.... talk is free... do is then smth....

Labels: 9-7 Yay I Win Alan

Sunday, September 21, 2008

ok lets see... today woke up quite late.... at 11am.... zzzz at least not 12pm cuz i wana watch 9 ball semi final n finals... well the 1st match quite nice to watch sia cuz its like no ldr.... everytime draw even then yea watch through the whole match ended 9-8 damn nice match.... but the 2nd match not nice cuz i kinda fell asleep.... lols but it was 9-1 haha finals also nvr watched cuz slept through only watched the last few racks.... hehe the way pros play... they are so good.... haiix...

well my long time captain came n talked to me... cuz my msn was like pool player or tracker?? then he say alot of stuff.... but the thing was.... passion n intrest.... well kinda true... but kinda of headpain to think... even my mum also... so u gg to play pool more rather than do ur runs?? i say i dont know.... i can nvr focus on one sport fully n do it till the end.... i nearly gave up track in sec 4 cuz i was staying at the same timing through the year... n it was becuz of someone i continued since its last year.... so yea until now i dont know?? well tmr i have a pool date with a frend... long time no catch up ler haha....

ytd i got a reply... well she's studying still.... i dont know smth abt this..... its like ben said that day.... i dont see myself being with her or anywhere close even if i do bla bla bla.... its only been 4 months.... since we broke up.... i wonder how u did it.... but till now i just cant forget u every day....

Labels: Passion And Intrest

Saturday, September 20, 2008

well lets see.... i started the day at 8am kena kicked out of bed by mummy... she needa send my sis go tuition at bedok then we went to eat bkfast with my bro n we went to NSRCC to play billard.... kinda boring but well my accuracy improved..... =) then fetched my sis went to west coast mac to makan.... long time no makan lor... haha then went to temasek club to check the pool table there.... end up there was a pool table so played 2hrs only haha but only at $6 lolol 1hr $3 but the sticks abit shit lah haha well mummy won me 1 game out of 4 n she made alot of noise haha.....

came home watched 9 ball pool.... alex pagulayan vs some jap guy then the jap guy played like shit.... but his safety play damn zai sia.... haha pros.... so yea tmr got another 5hrs of 9 ball action =) haha tmr camp at home watch ler.... =) i wish i could be like them but i'm facing a dilema....

u see i'm also a tracker as many of u all know an accomplished one at that.... i have a national placing of top 4 in the shortest sprint n many final placings in my sec sch days so the thing now is.... i kinda love pool.... its kinda addictive but many ppl say if i were to really practice abit more i could really make it.... well thats wat ppl at pubs tell me.... so the question is shd i lay off track n field n play pro pool?? or continue with track n field?? i cant do both cuz its damn hard.... so advices pls?

today was eliza bday yea so wanted to go her blog n wish her happy bday cuz i msg her no reply n friendster also no reply ... so yea her blog got updated.... saw smth n it kinda gave me abit of mixed feelings i guess..... i seriously needa talk to her... i dont know why.... but i just need the time with her.... i still got so much of feelings inside me.... but how..... argh!!!!




yay today is friday!!! haha last day for the branch i worked at which is at queensway there... nxt 2 weeks gg science park there to work haha the person i have to report there seems abit blur haha well good for me... then slept during lunch n my boss help me da pao lunch.... she so kind to me haha lolol cuz i help her do so many extra things =.= lolol then quickly rushed home to watch 5hrs of 9 ball action!!! haha got one guy damn poor thing tio thrashed 9-0 lolol

today i msged her.... but no reply... dono wat to say.... drinking on empty stomache now... zzzz even such a simple thing also cannot.... wth.....

Thursday, September 18, 2008

let see today went to work as usual was late n forget to bring my access card so yea asked for another but they nvr scold me sia... haha then they had a lunch buffet for sept babies bday n they catered four seasons hotel food knn sia.... i tot no chance to eat but the boss tell me got alot left... i go to the pantry i found out still got alot of my meat but no vegetable.... then i was like wtf?? at least got food to eat dont complain haha.... nxt week i gg to the main office n they also got celebration yay!! haha more good food to eat...

then i wanted to zao... but the big boss of IT dpt came down so i cant zao T_T .... he reminded me of mr roy... my poly class tutor.... looked abit like him haha so yea he talked to me abt working nxt week... he seems kind of frendly n sarcastic like mr roy.... i think they bros ah.... haha so he zao then i zao 2hrs before time =) haha n i still get paid full price.... lolol

went home slacked awhile.... after that go out with sj blanaja him play pool =) n do some other things as well..... haha well we talk alot of cock bah haha n during pool today my 1st break shot was a golden break =) so happy haha today i felt my play was much better but i pity sj haha...

is there anything i can do to have a nice chat with u? i wish to start over? i nvr did anything bad to u.... n i get this type of treatment?? i really wonder why.... i am so emo now... i wished for once i would stop thinking abt u but i just cant... it seems that i keep seeing siewhong everyday at work due to the paper work fillling i do.... haiix.... siewhong.... i wish we could talk....

Labels: I Never Did Anything Bad To You And This Is Wat I Get After So Much?

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

lets see went to work today.... i went there fell asleep on the job then guess wat woke me up.... uknown number message.... here is how it went....

SEMSTERAL EXAMANITATION RESULTS...

Auto Cad A
Ideas A
OC B+
I2E B
Electronics C
Mechanics D+

So My GPA is..... shall not say cuz i nvr met the requirement to get the diploma + programme... haiix i wanted to take that diploma + one lor zzzzz but now i think i must go appeal ler lei sian.... knn dumb mechanics pull my results down... my electronics exam i did dam well cuz i was expected to fail but end up C!!! =) OC i tot i will get A but end up B+.....

so well work had to continue n yea did some stuff.... lunch break went to holland to find aaron to eat n take stuff from him.... so went back to office quite late =.= then continued work awhile n left quite soon after that haha

on the car mummy said my results sux.... so she forced me to study ler.... her force is not take away all the games n computer n privilages but she used money to bribe me.... the aim 3.5 every semster i get $$.... lols the last time she did this was sec 3.... ended up top 5 lolol.... so yea nxt semester u see nerd AhMok ler =) but i will still dota at night haha

today i sometimes wonder.... is there ever a way to talk to u?? i just have to preservere i guess... i know some day some how i can do it.... i know i can.... but for now i needa study..... without a job.... no love would even give a shit about you.....

Labels: My GPA is..... Shall Not Say....

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

somebody told me on sunday " work 1st day slack only 2nd day then got kick...."

so lets see ah.... i went to work at 9am on time.... boss came at 10am ok.... she gave me a task to do n said finish by end of day.... i finished by lunch time 12pm then i went for lunch n came back at 1pm.... i slacked until 3 just sitting there playing psp.... n the nxt task wat pack laptop into bags.... finished by 4 n went home 2hrs earlier =).... if this is called kick..... i have nth to say.... it seems like i'm paid to slack n play my psp.... during the 3 hrs of free time i had i only played psp until i got damn bored n asked for smth to do..... i'm totally wtf now.... n i have to go to main office for 2 weeks?? how sia.... =(

today i just recalled smth.... i was doing some filling from a hug pile of papers.... with people names on the forms... so my name was on top.... i had to whole punch the whole stack so i took out the paper randomly by stacks.... guess wat i saw on the top of 3 stacks i took out while punching holes..... Lim SIEWHONG, Chu SIEWHONG, the last one i forget the surname but it was still SIEWHONG..... KNN SIEWHONG SIEWHONG SIEWHONG.... i see liao ah.... even work also cannot let me off...WA LAO EH!!!! then mummy today in the car damn random sia... they were talking abt sex in the US n if the women say no to the men n the men still fuck the wife its an offence.... so suddenly my mum asked " so if ur wife so no?" then i say "LL lor" then the nxt qns.... so how's siewhong.... PCB LAH!!!! i over there..... emo until i reached work....

Labels: Even Work Cant Let Me Off From Her....

Monday, September 15, 2008

well went to work today.... quite a nice experience bah i guess.... my job was to crash coms.... actually is reformat bah haha today did 10 coms then just found out IBM com cannot reformat by hard disk dono why... haha then went for a 2hr lunch?? i left 30min earlier n they say come back 30 min later lols so 2hrs haha nvr did much i just went to makan opposite chicken rice like aloner then went back to office.... i got my own table n computer to use!!! haha they are so kind to me lor.... =) so slack haha after that noon reformat a few more coms..... then packed stuff for them to destroy.... then went home at 5pm haha work was kinda fun i guess.... hehe abit slack but i love the job... get paid $7/hr to slack in air con also haha =)....

i wonder if i had gone to MI would things be different? i just did'nt like MI's principal cuz of his way of bringing students up i guess.... kinda like my sec sch way with mr tham n wan =) best 2 teachers one can ever find.... haha but well if i had gone to MI u think i would still be with u? i guess so?? haiix ytd could'nt slp well... bros should know... suddenly i offline went to slp then 1am came back online =.= haiix.... siewhong siewhong siewhong.... wat IF things had changed....

Labels: What If Things Were Different?

Sunday, September 14, 2008

did'nt slp well last night got minor nightmare abt some stuff.... yea n i still dreamt of her... slept at 5 work up at 8 by mummy cuz she hungry ask the whole hse go eat bkfast end up nvr went.... cuz she nvr use force to wake me up like my daddy.... he drag me down the bed onto the floor one =.= then yea on n off sleep n wake up then 12+ went to my 6th grandauntie funeral.... practically i dont even know anyone there lor so i just emo there for awhile then went home.... mummy still tot can bring the red string home sia lolol heng i tell her throw away ah.... haha

backtrack alittle ytd night i signed in msn quite late.... then somebody tell me to forget her n stuff.... well if i could forget her i would have long ago.... tell me find new girl.... i dont find any girl as cute as her.... i will only jio a more perfect person that siewhong.... but in my dictionary.... i dont think there is one out there bah.... haiix bros if i could have forgotten abt her i would have.... but just let me bah... i know u are all concerned i guess??

i kinda miss playing pool.... zzzzz i think i seroiusly addicted ler weeee haha well tmr i start my job!!! haha 2 weeks $600 i think lolol.... come to think if of it i cant train properly n cant enjoy my holiday for 2 weeks =(

i dono wat to say today.... i just miss her so much.... i believe one day i may be able to get u back... i just believe so.... well we'll see how bah.... =)

Labels: Time To Start Working Tomorrow

did nth today.... slacked at home... did nth lolol.... wanted to play pool but nvr kaki... then go alone also sian... so stayed at home slacked lor.... nth to watch on tv also.... dota also bored.... so yea thats my day??? sux right??

haiix.... i wana msg somebody today but i feel like if i msg her... will she feel fed up?? why do i still care?? even sj tell me why u care abt wether she see u or not... i dont know... or smth like tt.... but well one of the jurong west hse was sold.... got 2 left.... waiting for daddy to come back n confirm =.=.... siewhong i just wish to get u back... but talk is free... doing is damn hard... maybe impossible??

Labels: Why You Care About Wether She Feel That Way Anot??

Friday, September 12, 2008

today nth really happened woke up supposed to go sp training with aaron but hse raining then end up cancel gym then yea slacked... basically just slacked lor.... then the job agency called me i got a job but only 1 slot pay is $7 / hr then ya starts nxt week for 2 weeks asking them for any more jobs for frends also.... see i'm good right...

well watch women's 9 ball on tv they girl quite good... wonder how it would be like travelling n doing wat u enjoy most... be it running.... playing pool... canoe polo... netball.... swimming.... wateva... i dont know.... tour life.... u will miss ur loved ones i guess....

then at night went to see a jurong west house... think we are buying it bah.... the hse not bad... but i just realised.... the more houses we see now the more closer it gets to her hse.... at 1st was pending road there ah ben hse nearby... then bukit batok then clementi then jurong east now jurong west sumore 3 houses ler lor.... but this hse i really like lei.... but its like in between lakeside n boonlay mrt there... lols so yea most likely buying this one i guess...

so well msged her today she replied she had a rough week.. i guess promos coming for her... well i dont know wat to say... my head is in a daze now... drinking beer on empty stomache... =) i really miss her.... but why.... she has such a big impact on me but why dont i have any impact on her???

Thursday, September 11, 2008

today nth really happened... lols woke up watched d.gray-man nice anime.... =) its smth different from naruto n bleach.... haha then met teck cheong at bukit timah plaza mambo pool.... it was to pass him his booties one lah then i met him there lor cuz my hand itchy also haha taught him how to play pool =) but i failed haha lolol well then went to makan then go home.... reached home slacked n dota.... watched the zha bor pool semi finals on TV.... the girl's break more strong than the guy... fuck sia.... i think i break now also like ah gua lor.... they 20 miles /hr i think i only 2??? lolol but well i'm gg to practice so nxt time in pub i can just pay $2 forever stay there liao weeee....

then horhx suddenly out of no where.... vivian talked to me on msn... convo is like the worse i've ever seen??

Viv: hey ahmok ah mok ahmok
me: ??
viv: i just break with alex
me: dont u feel sad??
viv: nope not even a single bit i now very happy
me: u prepare sign form go IMH liao....
viv: i dont understand why u so impacted by siewhong

nvr replied back cuz i change topic.... BUT THE THING IS!.... why u dont get sad over a break up?? not even a little bit?? when i broke up i was crying.... i'm pretty sure siewhong cried when she went back.... but well this is the 1st time i see such thing sia.... wtf man!!! she can prepare sign form go imh liao lor.... but well after that played dota with bros... had a 4s delay... my score 2-13.... suck until cannot suck.... but items not bad =) haha lolol

whenever i msg you.... i just wish u would reply....
whenever i msg you.... i wish i did not spoil your day....
whenever i msg you.... i hope you would not find me a bother....
whenever i msg you.... i really want to get you back from square 1....
whenever i msg you.... i really wished to say i love you....

but wat is the use?? i wonder wat was seriously going on in ur mind those few months.... i'm gg nuts soon... someone save me.....

Labels: Whenever I Msg You.... I Just Only Wish To Talk...

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

well the day went like this... went for training.... then did some weights with joshua.... but i did explosive weights while he did for nice body shape weights.... then i went off cuz i was supposed to pass wei jie his stuff but he ask who free bla bla i say sj busy with py then leo ben at training... dm sure busy... so we nvr met... but i think i pass him sj's share of it?? cuz sj's share haven touch n i'm done with mine liao.... lolol so sj take money from wj?? aiya fuck lah u both go settle lah.... then went home.... slacked awhile then went to mambo with aaron... we can nvr play race to 9 with 9 ball cuz i dont think he like 9 ball well we play 8 ball n 9 ball here n there n there was a point of the game where the balls were to damn zai zai one... =) haha lolol so we went to makan at market after that then go play 40min lan n went home... zzzzz abit bored ah today....



the beginning when i slided my stripball beside his solid =)



after my next shot this is wat happened after i touched his other solid... pro right me =)

ok today i had the most wierdest dream.... erm dono how to exactly say.... but just imagine... setting is bukit timah primary school.... but its called Singapore poly in my dream.... my class is my sec sch class.... so ya the dream went lilke this... i tot i was at bukit timah until i saw my track junior n he said " i come here for sp sports day relay lah kena invited mah..." then i wtf... i went to class.... was my sec sch class.... teacher was kavitha.... zzzzz hong gan.... so i tot the class was abit small cuz very little people until the girl gang came in... so guess who came in.... i practically snapped n dono wat happen after that my mother tot i crazy cuz she say i in slp i punched the wall... which i day after i snapped in my dream... wtf lah!!!! haiix... talk abt all these.... i think i'm gg nuts over her soon...... but aaron said it becuz u really want her that much.... well i asked him abt the bday opinion n the result was " OH FUCK MY DAD BDAY ON RESULTS DAY" his bus came n went.... =.= lolol

Labels: I Really Want You That Much.... I Dont Hide My Feelings Anymore... I Really Want You Yong Siew Hong

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

well lets see today play dota abit fucked up also.... then play pool with leo.... sj n wj supposed to follow but i think they got smth on... nvr came... so me n leo play.... then ya i lost until si bei jia lat.... 11-4..... haha worse ever lost.... but well kinda fun.... then reach home went to see my new house.... i think it would be at jurong west... 10min bus ride to her house?? leo tell me "wtf man jurong west nxt time no need mahjong ler lor... so far... not even on the way...." lolol haha nvm lah shall do short post only cuz nth to talk abt....

found myself a 2 day job with daddy lolol i think he paying me $100?? lols just carry wine here n there bla bla for 2 days haha better than nth... but well the thing is the $100... i wanted to buy a havanna for myself.... then i just realised somebody's birthday is coming.... teck teck say gentleman buy can lah... unless u really buay song then fuck care... i need some help... tell me at tagboard thx... quite obvious who it is liao lah.... since this is the last part of the post...

Labels: GentleMan Then Can... Unless Seriously Buay Song Then Fuck Care

Monday, September 8, 2008

well today nvr go bkfast with my mum woke up abit late.... haha got woken up by damian cuz he call me to dota... then leo com cant dota so we wait until very long until sj buay tahan then play.... after that leo jio me to play pool i on the spot hyped up liao... i think i addicted to pool sia jia lat...

then waited for bus for quite long... the funny thing i board bus.... saw this girl damn chio... very sporty i like those type one lah... then horhx damn funny somebody call me... end up is Meixuan.... just sitting beside her... i did'nt even realise sia... lolol sry lah sister but the girl beside u more eye catching lolol haha then met leo went mambo to play... i lost today!!!! 9-7 usually we play race to 9 bah but not so pro... haha but the 8 ball game damn funny.... imagine corner pocket my stripe ball stuck there abit more... leo go slide his 8 black ball infront.... then i bo bian foul ball.... then he free ball also miss so end up i in other pocket i in black ball... suay leo lolol damn funny lah so end up he still win haha....

then went to the lvl 2 there eat the coffeeshop i miss the chicken rice... but i feel bad lei... leo have to eat zai then i eat meat infront of him... sry leo... haha then we went to find sj... py was there i see them play wow until eye stem lols then me leo go marine play ground slack talk abit of cock then go home....

why is it that when i see cute/hot girls now i feel nth??? i know i'm not becoming gay.... but just that is my heart only set on her??? its already been 4 months.... give me half a year n i will still say i wan her.... i must admit... when u say " siewhong is the most unique girl in the whole of singapore" i will say yes.... now i really know why.... people say its hard.... you say its almost impossible... but i will that miracle happen.... one day i hope it will.... everyday i just wish to talk to u... but i'm just so scared....you guys call me ahgua call me gay call me wat u wan... but its just that wall that she planted infront of both of us now....

Labels: Give Me Half A Year More And I Will Still Say I Want Her

Sunday, September 7, 2008

well did nth today slept awhile 2hrs? forced myself to wake up so i can later fall asleep so as not to screw up my day n night system thing.... yeap then played.... wanted to go pool but leo is sick =( Take Care Leo.... haha then i dont think i meeting sj later to take my stuff.... ya so abit slackish today.... been watching air gear whole day haha nice anime for guys... but not for gals cuz of those stuff =)....

when ur attached u have not much freedom.... but when ur not... u wished for somebody to be there n hold u down.... now i just wan her.... but why.... she's changed so much but why.... i'm so fucked up now.... results are coming on 16sept.... hope i get a score of 2.0 n above.... well theres so much in my mind now.... but i just only wished to express it to you... but its not possible anymore.... no matter how small the chance to talk to u... i will feel happy.... but i really wish to get u back....



question N1 : The person who taqqed you is? STUPID VIVIAN ONG PEI WEN

question N2 : Your relationshiip with him/her? Classmates for 3 years???

Come to think of it very long sia

question N3 : Your 5 impressions of him/her? hardworking.friendly.gila.emo.japanese siao kia

question N4 : The most memorable thinq he/she has done for you? If she got i will kena 4D

question N5 : The most memorable thing he/she said to you? Dont smoke becuz don’t give government more money =)

question N6 : If he/she becomes ur lover you would ? Die die never will happen

questions N7 : If he/ she becomes ur lover , she needs to improve on?die die die die cannot happen one

question N8 : If he /she becomes ur enemy you will .. BOMB HER HOUSE STR8! =) no lah she this kind wont be enemy one =)

question N9 : If he / she becomes ur enemy the reason would be?must be cuz de zui me =.=

question N10 : The most desired thing u want for him/her will be? erm let her have a good life??

question N11 : Your overall impression of him/her will be? EMO GIRL!!!!

question N12 : How do u think other people will feel about you? did i pai seh myself??

question N13 : Th characters you love about urself is ? happy go lucky i guess??

question N14 : Th characteristics you hate about urself is ?erm cuz i have not alot of self confidence?

question N15 : Th most ideal person you want to be?A person who can be happy no matter wat he does...

question N16 : For people that care and love you ; what do you wanna say ? i love you guys as well =)

questions N17 : Pass this quiz onto 10 people that u wish to know how they feel about you?
#1 ` Shi Jie
#2 ` Ben
#3 ` Hong Jie
#4 ` Aaron
#5 ` Xuan Yu
#6 ` VIVIAN
#7 ` Y.K
#8 ` Siva
#9 ` Aarti
#10` Siewhong ( if she would even bother) =)

question N18 : who is 6 having a r/s with?Attached to some guy...

question N19 : is number 9 a male/female ?Aarti=female

question N20 : if number 7 and 10 are together ; would it be a good thing?they both look alike but they are girls =.= Yk. SH

question N22 : what is number 2 studying about?Ben:Electrical computer in NP

question N23 : when was the last time u had a chat with Number 3?Hong Jie:When we mah-jong!!!

question N24 : what kind of music band does number 8 like ?
Siva : New Age

question N25 : does number 1 have any siblings ?Shi Jie:ya

question N26 : will you woo number 3 ?Hong Jie: not gay... unless its no.10

question N27 : how about number 7 ?YK: Worse nvr even thought abt it

question N28 : is number 4 single?Aaaron: yes but dono the future...

question N29 : whats the surname of number 5?Xuan Yu: Xiang Xuan Yu i think??

question N30 : Whats the hobby of number 10 ?Siewhong : netball + sleeping

question N31 : does number 5 and 9 get along?Aarti and Xuan Yu: nvr will get together one...

question N32 : Where is number 2 studying ?Ben:Np

question N33 : Talk something casually about number 1 ?ShiJie: troubled guy.... =)

question N34 : Have you tried developing feelings for number 8 ?Siva: NEVER I”M NOT GAY!!!!

question N35 : Where does number 9 live ?Aarti: jurong west

question N36 : What colour does number 4 like ?Aaron: good qns lei i think black??

question N37 : Are number 5 and 1 best friiends ?Shi Jie and XY: don’t think will be... n nvr will be totally opposite of each other

question N38 : does number 1 have any pets ?Shi Jie: nope

question N39 : is number 7 the sexiest person in the world?Yk: NEVER WILL BE! Even i more sexy lor =)

question N40 : What is number 10 doing now ?Siewhong: studying i guess?? If not sleeping or watching tv =) study hard gurl =)

Labels: All My Thoughts Are Wished Only To Be Expressed To You...

lets see how shd i start?? erm basically slacked at home ytd... wanted to play pool but leo suddenly needa go town with ah ben so i was left at home slacking..... =) then ya abt 6pm went pool with leo?? then sj came n own us badly.... tyco one =) haha leo abit suay today.... so ya after that we go leo hse n slack.... then he webcam one gurl.... not bad sia haha but not intrested at all NOT EVEN A SINGLE BIT.... =) haha then they came over to my hse in a cab.... the fare only $4?? lolol uncle sure damn dulan one lols... then ya started to mahjong....



round 1 lost $7 total.... sucks alot.... i knew my luck is'nt changing.... then i did smth stupid.... i wore my lucky charm.... actually its just that ring which i really liked alot cuz of ..... guys u saw the ring also lah.... then my luck totally changed.... won back $16 total in 3 the nxt 3 rounds.... quite happy.... but well mahjong aint my thing now... maybe just to catch up with frends n pass time ya we mahjong.... LEO IS SUPER HIGH TODAY!!!! lolol haha made me laugh until cannot laugh.... =) then erm something happened n all went home lolol.... =P



i just found out the name on my ring is not my name... i tot it was my name but it aint... its her name.... well i dont know.... i've been winning quite alot of mahjong in the past when i was with her... after we broke my luck totally changed until today when i wore that ring which i should not.... i just wan you.... that special unqiue you.... well life is nvr fair.... n i hope that i can even get a small chance to jio u back...

Labels: My Luck Totally Changed Today Cuz Of My Lucky Charm...

Saturday, September 6, 2008

haiix dono wat to post but here i am... lets see today basically rotted at home... jio leo go pool but he at kallang... jio sj but he bo lu... wanted to jio ah ben but he not online so i know he's out.. so rotted at home watching love hina, air gear, vamp knight <---- vivian intro one.... lols only got 14 espisodes.... lols so ya then dota abit.... not quite in the mood to dota... well if u ask me... the dota game was quite a good one... cuz its been a long time since i play 100mins of dota... so ya the game went quite well until one guy backdoor us... so of course the main thing is bd them back but cuz i was a weak piece of shit... so i asked them alot of times.... they say they wont spoil a good game so yea it was my PAST used to be like tt kinda make me thinking abit.... XXX says : " dota also can quarrel" haha but well....

People Do Change... Change is The Only Constant for all of us... But We Should Be Wat We Are... We Should Not Be Just to please others... In The Process Friends And Bros Will Come And Go... Either They accept you Or Just Dissapear From your life....

Qouted AhMok XXXX < ---- trying to think of 4 nice numbers so can buy 4D

well ya so i have alot more to type... but i damn emo now.... i really miss that special someone... i know its dumb.... i know its lame.... i know u people will tell me to forget her... to stop being emo... to stop smoking cuz of her... to stop drink cuz of her.... but well its my choice... i dont mind waiting for her... its the sensation i keep getting everyday...

some fav qoutes that will help u guys....

"Stop Smoking So Govt Dont Earn So Much Money"
"How Long More Are You Going To Be Stuck In This Mess?"
"No Matter How Much We Say Or Tell You... Its All Up to You To Choose...."
"There's A Flip Side To Everything"
"We Are All Bros... Anything Can Talk One"

ya so these are the few i rmb.... haha shall i update with names??

Labels: Is This Wat They Really Mean By True Love??

Thursday, September 4, 2008

well today woke up quite early just to go bkfast... daddy kick me up n pull me down the bed zzzzz well he gg overseas for 1 month so yea just follow.... sent sister to sch then go tanglin halt to eat... nvr eat alot cuz my throat damn pain then ya drink soya bean only =.= so went home slacked then went to dental at bishan tightened my braces n stuff... then went home n sleep cuz not feeling very well... woke up at 5??

went for dinner at wheelock sun n moon .... or sun with moon or smth lah... then ate 3 bowls of rice with beef =) haha damn full now.... well gg off soon to T3 cuz daddy gg shanghai.... at least he left me 2 bottles of wine to drink....

whenever i see couples now i get so jealous.... the 2 initials S and H already made me so fed up ytd... but why.... i seriously wana do smth but i cant.... i really just love u so much... haiix.... i love the gal not the memories that we had....

Labels: I Love The Gurl Not The Memories...

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

well today abit long day bah woke up quite early watched hitman reborn until 1+ 2?? then go MEIXUAN hse play pool n teach her physics end up do a few qns she dont wana do liao so play pool... the pool table damn small.. ball quality like shit stick like for kids... the space also not so much... haiix but well just merely practised thats all... then rained... could'nt go home so early so we just slack lor....

went home abt 5? leo called me ask me dota bla bla today dota not bad got alot of form haha even sj say " a noob like me also can 9-0 lols" haha but ya like tt lor then had a later game not quite in the mood to play cuz they have a frend called SinHan then they call him SH... n yea kinda ruined my mood... abit moody now.... got sore throat n gg to rest... saturday mahjong with bros.... i know i'm gg to lose cuz i have lost all my luck... saturday we see bah even if win 10c i happy enuff liao... =)

why is it that u had such a big impact in my life?? ur impact on me was much greater than any other person i've met.... now i'm so lost... i seriously still wonder at times... why???

Labels: Your Impact On Me Was The Greatest

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

my 100th post!!! lols well come to think of it my 1st post was also a very sad post so i shall make this post abit sad =.= emo boy ah me...

well today went bkfast but had no appetite to eat cuz of sore throat... then mummy gg trg then daddy bring me go see a house at jurong west... near my ex.... haiix sad life.... not say very near but cuz its also in jurong west.... so yea went to see n may be able to buy the hse... then horhx daddy very kiam pa of all routes to travel back home... he take the longest... go MI that way....

haiix its like i have double feelings lah.... like leo will say cui gong lam pa song... its like my heart wana see her n stuff but my mind does'nt wish to see her.... my only wish is to see her n talk to her.... but on the other hand i dont wish to see her... double hearts??? haiix well just came back from mambo with leo win him 11-10 LOLS leo got one golden break grats =) but is tyco one... then ya gg to rest now.... tmr needa teach mx physics cuz of her o lvl.... i'm such a good bro =) no mood to talk.... time to emo liao....

Labels: I Have Double Feelings....

Monday, September 1, 2008

ok shall make short post kinda dead now.... well went trg n screwed up my weights then went play pool + pub with mummy daddy end up lost quiet a fair bit but loser drink so abt 5 bottles on empty stomache?? lost count but yea enjoyable time cuz i learnt a lot of new things...

today i kinda think alot abt u... how u would turn out n stuff... but why do i still care?? i dont know.... i just needa ask myself alot of qns now... but even in my state of mind now in drunk state i cant think... i seriously miss u.... haiix loving someone is terrible n painful.... or is it one sided love???

well i'm a goner

Labels: One Sided Love Is Terrible N Painful

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