Friday, October 31, 2008

35MINUTES 13SECONDS WAS ALL IT TOOK TO WRECK MY BRAINS OUT!!!! RAWR!!!!


i wanted to rush down to boon lay now to pass her the present but she does'nt wan!! she wana slp!!! i really mean that little i guess.... its not the trouble of running from batok to boon lay but just that u are no other days free..... a few reasons why i wana give it myself

1. I wana see u.....
2. it would mean more....
3. wats the use of a belated present?? not so much meaning liao lor....
4. if another were to give.... wats the impact?? lesser right?? u would be more high with aarti than me....
5. i really spent so much time to do the things..... i just need 1 minute to do this instead of letting it all go to waste....

i have no intention of getting back with u.... i cant see myself with u anymore.... its just frends... i dont know why i am doing this.... but why am i doing so much for her??

BROS I NEEDA DRINK NOW.... SHI JIE LEO BEN MEI XUAN LITING DAMIAN JUSTIN AARON IF U ALL ARE FREE NOW! PLS TELL ME... FUCKING EMO

Labels: 35 Min 13s To Wreck My Brains

Thursday, October 30, 2008

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: I'M BLOODY HIGH NOW AFTER A CALL WITH HER AT 8.43PM WOOTS!!!!!....

ok those ppl that got gf n think that a call from a girl only that make me high n think i'm crazy... fuck off.... after so long.... i could finally smile deep down inside..... the happiness is just there.... pure happy!!! WOOTS I'M GG HIGH LIAO!!!!! dont wana update abt wat happen today CUZ I'M SO HIGH AND ONLY REMEMBER HER WORDS!!!!..... call my crazy BUT I'm HIGH!!!!!

well.... finally i'm so happy.... finally i can put that smile on my face.... even though its temporary.... the nxt one will be when i meet u to pass the present..... during the convo.... u passed ur promos..... u got a part time job.... going for camp n overseas trip..... somehow i feel high now.... I DONT WANA DRINK BEER I DONT WANA SMOKE ANYMORE I JUST WANA TALK TO U!!!! I FEEL SO HAPPY NOW!!!!..... anyway I'M HIGH NOW.....

meeting bros for pool tommorrow..... i feel so happy now.... not becuz i can play pool but becuz of 1 call n 1 msg...... WOOTS!!!! HIGHNESS!!!!

Labels: SI BEI HIGH AH

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

ok nvr went for morning class today i woke up at 9am zzzzzz then went for 12 noon class.... but i went sch at 10am haha met adnan at kofu then we went SPGG to play pool.... i multi-tasker cuz i playing dai di with yk also $1/game lols i lost $5 haha but heng she discount me =).... then my pool game was also sucky n was kinda worrying me as well... haha =)

then went for class 1hr only and yk lend me a book to read.... lols nice book ok.....<--- see last paragraph later... then WAS SUPPOSED to meet a girl abt AIA some stupid thing but i not dumb cuz AIA is the one that was greatly affected by the lehman bros bankcrupt thing haha.... ended up gg to moberly with aaron adnan n hong jie then the gal call me so i went to hear her proposal awhile lah it seems its the same thing she wants me to buy the stupid programme n trying to make the money sound better lols..... ended up i said i will get back to parents so i dono lah.....

then went back to moberly for pool competition!!! well saw many players bring personal cues n mood went down..... SP club was participating as well n it made it worse.... wanted to borrow cue stick from chee chin but shes already at home!!! wahahahaha so used house cues.... well my match went like that.....

i won the lag lols but its damn cock one haha so i broke 1st.... well my balls shrank n the break was damn soft..... even i know i can break better than that..... tension was damn high lah.... well comments abt the game....

Rack 1: LOST
the 9 ball was at the centre pocket but at the edge.... my cue ball is directly at the btm whole n i have no idea how to shoot..... my initial plan was to bounce off the opposite rail but i scared foul ball ended up big mistake as i just rammed the ball n the 9 ball landed near the hole in a str8 line T_T....

Rack 2 : LOST
cock up reason.... dont laugh ah.... i foul 9 ball as my ball went into the hole.... other player tot G_G n moved 9 ball.... ended up ball in hand for me.... missed a fucking str8 line shot!!! RAWR n lost lah.....

Rack 3 : LOST
another cock up reason i whacked almost all the balls in n the placing on the 9 was a STRAIGHT LINE.... i FUCKING MISSED AGAIN n the other guy won... zzzzz

conclusion 3-0 the score lah but aaron say is i damn suay.... well kind happy i got something to take home from the match.... haha experience =) well 9 ball is cruel!!! right leo? =) but one thing i can conclude... i made the better shots then that guy..... 2 long table bank shots n 3 rail shots all with placing on the nxt ball!!! haha i'm so happy.... when i missed the 9 ball everyone was "HAIIX" haha.... .well now considering serious pool..... but i dont know yet.... still have something else on mind.....

then went MM day had a ball of fun.... laughing n laughing n BUFFET DINNER AH!!! wahahahahaha...... people throwing paper at ppl who won lucky draw n ppl making comments which can laugh until die.....

well the book yk lend me is abt..... my past..... the one with siewhong n how the ending was like.... but yea reading half way only lah.... anyway msged her n no reply... how to pass her the present like that sia!!!! T_T

Labels: The Love We Once Shared. The Love Once Was So Blissful. Can Never Be Refreshed Again. BUT I"M NOT GIVING UP YET

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

ok lets see today update i go sch lols saw my ex boss but he did'nt recognize me so forget it cuz the train was pretty crowded anyway n he's always msging lols as usual so reached class late bla bla bla bla nvr ate lunch n went to study the stupid quiz....

quiz time was only like 2 MCQ ?? Wtf man 2 mcq questions only zzzzz then class ended went to eat with adnan n went to temasek for awhile.... came home half way cuz i felt like vomitting..... well tmr pool competition.... i think i wont do well haha =) lets see....

i wana msg u but i'm scared i wana talk to u but i scared u find me annoying.... if only the feelings of the past was ignored.... if only.... if

Labels: If Only The Feelings Of The Past Was Ignored

Monday, October 27, 2008

hmmmm lets see.... today i did not have a very soundly slp.... a few reasons.... bad dream..... woken up by mummy... woken up by bro..... anyway here's wat happen....

was having a very RANDOM dream.... then suddenly my mum woke me up saying she gg off to china ler then ask me jagar house.... so ok lah.... then i fell back to slp.... then immediately i got the WORSE EVER DREAM i can think off.....

scenario.....

i was looking at my com surfing the net.... but too my surprise when i read the contents..... it wrote something like this.....

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXx
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxx
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxxx
Nicholas is a very annoying boy to me. I broke up with him just to study but it seems he cant forget me. he tries to woo me back but nvr makes it. but i have yet to tell him i found another love. i really care for this guy n i only love him the most.... XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxx
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXx
From Siewhong.....

thats the only part i could rmb..... the XXXX are other stuff not porno stuff.... but it really broke my heart... i woke up with tears rolling down my eyes...... haiix it really my heart.... then i went back to slp soon... but this time.... the exact opposite of wat was written....

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxx
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I really miss him i wish i could meet him n stuff i've nvr been happy without him i wish to meet him n give him another chance...XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxx
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxx
From Siewhong

and it not only stopped there.... it continued until i really met her n gave her the present n stuff.... forgotten abt the ending but its just damn scary for me lah....

anyway enuff of my dreams..... my day was gg temasek with aaron n then meeting leo at beauty world.... lolol played with leo pool at mambo then got 3 golden breaks in the whole match.... 1 to leo n 2 to me..... haha won 9-8 DAMN HENG ONE haha

if the good part of the dream came true i would be happy for both of us.... but if the 1st part came true i would be happy for u i guess.... but deep down angry with myself... i'm so afraid of u.... haiix i'm such a gay....

Labels: Then 2 Dreams That Made My Day

UPDATE FOR 26 OCTOBER 2008 haha sunday's update

erm woke up watch guiness 9 ball tour nvr watched the finals as needa go my father frend's house cuz of house warming....

anyway reached there saw some of my dad's frends n the children is i know one cuz we have been tgt for like?? since the day they were born?? haha except this "host" children cuz i have only seen him once at the pub n nvr see the children... anyway his name is uncle bird... dono why this name but heck it.... he has 3 daughters..... one of which is not bad lah..... haha but not my type.... i think she likes my bro.... then we just played n played n played.... uncle bird suddenly ask me this....

uncle bird : eh nick u sick ah?
me: no ah why?
uncle bird : u come here nvr drink my beer abit odd sia u...
me: got meh??
uncle bird : nvm lah just drink only....

wtf i dont drink beer = sick ah??? lolol anyway my bro got addicted to beer becuz of him haha.... he say drink beer good mah.... then not call ah gua.... then went home at 11 then dotaed n watched the final match of 9 ball.... now i'm gg to slp ah tmr got pool with 2 ppl T_T.....

mummy is gg china for the week!!! haha but the sudden shock of the day is

mummy : eh nick do u think of siewhong still??
nick : got ah why
mummy: haiix she's a good girl but she needa study oso wat....
nick: ya she got promoted....
mummy: good wat.... if she's ur wife i'm sure she will be a good one....
nick: erm orh.....

lols i think she will have alot of suitors one lah she.... but i will stand very little chance compared to them lah... haiix why is life so cruel to me....

Labels: Dont Drink Beer = Sick

Sunday, October 26, 2008

SATURDAY 25th OCTOBER 2008 UPDATE....

woke up wished mummy happy bday while i still dead in bed lols.... then we went to sun n moon restruant at wheelock place..... the waitress not bad sia..... the guai type of look =) haha argh anyway then daddy randomly say " lets go temask play pool"... i =.=..... then play n i lose him at 8 ball..... thrashed him at 9 ball str8 haha.....

rushed home went to watch guiness 9 ball tour..... haiix the pros make it seem so simple lor knn.... anyway mummy say if i clear abt 2 3 rounds of sp competition then i should maybe consider playing pool instead of running.... haha then ate dinner mummy daddy went out.... made a booking at temask with aaron.... but that morning i gg play with alan then go temasek with aaron.... wa die ah..... haha anyway then slacked at home..... mummy suddenly said " monday i maybe gg china with ur father..... i'm like ok.... then nxt line.... 2 weeks.... KNN 2 weeks?!!! " SHIOK SIA haha but haven really confirm this...

i'm glad u got promoted.... i tot 49% retention rate.... die how will u fare.... but i wonder why am i so worried for u.... i mean ur life is ur life...... i'm sure u will not wan me to bother abt u.... but i just cant.... i dono why.... haiix.... 9 days to ur bday n i still have not talked to u yet....

Labels: Can I Meet You To Pass You Something?

Friday, October 24, 2008

quick update... went sch had engineering materials practical n e tech tutorial.... finished tutorial in record time n zao to GG play pool haha n i lost to aaron AGAIN haha..... 1-0 the score =) then rushed off to temasek cuz i made pool booking.... played until hand blister.... went home for 1hr dinner then went off to century for round 2 with leo... score 9-5 i win haha.... then found out daddy put back my $400 in the bank... dono how come also..... SP pool club msged us saying bla bla bla n the format is single elimination... so 1st day i prepare to go out liao haha.....

jiahao said half of the MI people got promoted.... he got promoted.... i wonder how she did...i dare not call her or anything.... haiix.... i wish her the best.... but i needa meet her!!! 10 days left till her bday..... anyway tmr is mummy bday =)

Labels: 1st Day Prepare To Get Eliminated

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

OC standard.....

- went sch today
- break time of 2hrs went to play pool with adnan
-ended up playing dai di half way
-realised aaron cant think so fast
-realised y.k is a gambling godess
-my pool shots sux today
-but still register for SP pool competition with aaron
-went for GEMS lesson
-fell asleep
-went moberly with adnan
-n i still suck at pool
-saw somebody but i doubt she recognize me
-bought Maxim
-havent read yet
-reached home
-frendster updates hanged n the 1st name was her's.....

this one cant put point form.....
siewhong are u avoiding me? or do u have a bf? i just wana ask u out one day for awhile.... but i doubt u will agree to it..... i just wish for a simple reply.... but i doubt u bother abt me.... i just wish things did not turn out this way.... but i doubt the fact that it does'nt mean that we cant be tgt.....

Labels: Is Fate Still Bringing Me Closer To Her?

today nvr did anything much.... practically i listened n studied in class so attentively for the 1st time!!! haha..... must buck up ler if not pay own sch fees can die..... had materials n eltech class followed by makan n 3hrs maths.... trying to get a hold of the derivitives in maths.... hard to understand but still can do a few simple questions....

then msged stanley.... sp track captain saying that i will go back to sp track after their ivp.... guess its training for me..... cant join pool..... rather play it myself then get someone to teach me..... as for cue stick.... wait bah.... haha called Mr Tham n he said " expected one lah..... but its ok its been fun seeing u grow for 4 years....."

haha come to think of it.... 4 years zoom past so fast.... came into tanglin with nth.... left with a national no.8 ranking.... sch 100m record.... tanglin SL grp..... n a wonderful bros n sis n jokers n frends n erm hm....

seems like not many ppl joined SP 9 ball compy.... alot of my frends did'nt.... all say not pro enuff.... then like that i doomed for life liao lor.....

well last para..... so here goes.... MI results came out today..... well eliza ( erm not so close sis but same sec sch n class ) did pretty bad i heard..... jiahao ( id4 team member) did badly as well..... i wonder how did she do.... i have yet to give the present lah!!!! zzzzzz supposed to jio my bros go out drinking one day..... then hang over nxt day i go pass to her..... ah hope she does well n promote..... i wish her all the best even though i cant get near her.....

Labels: Hope You Do Well To Promote =)

Monday, October 20, 2008

go sch today late zzzzzz woke up at 7.30 rushed to sch..... then met pravin n nasri then rejected smoking.... hmmm wonder why i did that.... ah well had C programming class quiz followed by CRS debate on Eutophonia or some shit..... simple meaning is mercy killing... like if the person got Aids gg to die liao... should kill mah?? then slept during maths.... my brain switched off.... dr ram sure saded lor...

then went to fc3 makan then dr ram joined us lolol talked n crapped.... then found out more abt him..... ok then alan called me go play pool lols.... lost at 9 ball 9-7 but thrashed him 9-1 at 8 ball ouch..... ah well played some money games with him as well..... then went home slacked broke my specs.... had them replaced at westmall..... bought money not enuff 2 n just watched finish..... touching sial.... i dont mind the type of daughter in the show.... as in the jack neo the daughter.... but i will mind the wife..... haiix life is unfair.... n i had to learn it the hard way......

got my pay but only $600..... $200 went to CPF lah fuck lei.... had to pay $400 to daddy cuz of mummy bday present n the treat i promised the family n the $150 for the havianas sandals that day i buy.,.... so basically i'm left with $50 lols..... there goes my stuff..... lucky unlike siva..... if i were to be like siva get my pay cofiscated.... i will run away ler..... lols....

one button is all u can do to make me happy..... if chenghao could do it..... why cant i? if poly had so many pretty girls like people said... then i guess i'm gay.... if someone said " no matter wat happenes wait for me......" i will gladly say " if i love u so much... i will...." but now.... i'm just staring at the wall..... crying alone in the shadows..... ok i sound so emo.... but somehow deep down i'm pretty sure.... u will remisicize those memories..... its the girl i wan...... the one that told me.... " i can tell u my answer now OK!!! haha lol..... " on that very faithful day 28 march 2007 at 1649hrs....

Labels: If Poly Had Many Pretty Girls.... Then I Guess I'm Gay

BACK FROM HONG KONG WEEEEEEEETS!!!! haha ok 1st thing no souviniers for anybody cuz the stuff there fucking ex.... 1 thing cheapest i can find $10 zzzzzzzzz sian... anyway back to reality sch in 7hrs time haiix fucked up lah... tired now gg to slp .....

dream land..... everynight i dream of u.... every happening that occured..... the reaction was in ur point of view.... not mine.... i tot holiday was the time to relax.... but i just cant seem to forget u..... anyway i think i'm still in love with u.... sometimes i wish i was the one that really let go....

update more with pics LATER cuz now monday.... holidays are out.... school is in! haiix fucked up love life of mine....

Labels: I Think I'm Still Deeply In Love With You

Thursday, October 16, 2008

erm today i went sch 8am then went there the teacher say buy book.... no book cannot start lesson then LL lor... then the teacher damn funny sial....

teacher : this book ah can only buy in 1 popular shop in singapore.... u know which one?
classmate: aiya so easy the most POPULAR POPULAR ONE LAH....
class: LOLS.....

then we were let off at 9.30? went fc3 to makan then play pool at gg then i like pay $2.50 n play like forever lor... then found out SP pool team not so pro i guess.... haha for someone like me who started playign less than half a year.... i think i'm good.... but i can get better LOLS haha but now suddenly i feel abit odd.... when ur too good at a sport.... frends dont really play it tgt anymore.... i rmb the times me n leo played until like 9-8?? so fun..... now its either thrash here or thrash there....

then went for materials lesson as usual i slept lah but the things so easy to study.... haha then went for gems with adnan.... damn fucking funny we walk to the other end of sch when the MLT8 lecture hall was behind the blk we were at zzzzzzzzzz then the class 10 ppl?? lols the lecturer abit nice..... he is a porno type of guy i guess typical singaporean.... haha i love his lectures!!

then went to 7-11 with adnan buy FHM then at dover platform reading half way then MRT come... wanted to read on MRT but adnan say dont wan damn pai seh lols but the cover turns me on lols then reached home n went off to play 3hrs of pool at only $10... LOLS haha my pocketing skills now abit sucky sia.... then went to airport fetch daddy home n now packing tmr gg hong kong!!! lols so this blog will be dead for 4 days till sunday night =) ..... anyway my flight is 1pm n i will arrive in sgp at 12mn on sunday <--- monday morning....

siewhong are u ignoring me.... or just busy? i wana talk.... i have the urge to call u at times..... but i scared i will get LL answers.... i dono how to pass the present..... buy liao then nvr pass.... can kill myself lor.... $40 lei lols

Labels: FHM Cover Turns Me On =)

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

today went to ghim moh with my mum n bro to makan but they left without me cuz bro needa rush to put his half braces n i ended up taking bus to sch lor lols.... then took 106 with aaron went sch then went for our 1st lesson engineering materials haha....

i had a female teacher that looked like poh khim..... almost 70% look alike?? haha then she said she was our tutor.... zzzz i hope not.... LOLS she has that chinese accent in english but its very much better than the other chinese tutors i have....

then we went for Eltech lesson.... 2hrs.... lols guess wat.... i tried my best to listen... but ended up slping =) lols haha even hong jie sit beside me also dont know =) pro right haha but justin caught me lols i'm a natrual born sleeper....

then we went to makan then went to our eng maths class!!! tot i would die but lucky Dr Ram's lecture was much clearer than ytd n i'm glad i had such a tutor..... nxt was the same subject but tutorial under a different lecturer.... funny sia.... anyway this lecturer dont think he abit smart.... i ask him " cher like that can do?" he came n said " got error ah? wait i ask around 1st n zao...." wtf man??

then took mrt to batok with adnan n yk..... adnan damn funny sia ask his gf run from woodlands to batok to eat burger king zzzzzzz then i hoped for FHM to come out but sadly dont have lols haha.... then came home eat.... n i went to hospital....

i suffered a heart attack.... it was damn painful.... my mind blacked out.... LOLS WHO AM I JOKING!!!! i'm no so faint hearted ok..... yea so i went to hospital cuz my new cousin just arrived today lols.... then the whole of my mum side family went n see the new born.... she damn noisy sia!!! haha then went home tried to do c programming but i'm closer to the error but i'm lazy to think only.... lols

aaron said this....
we have so many extreme teachers lah extreme singaporean.... extreme china women....extreme indian..... extreme fit... .extreme erm forget liao.... lols but well we do have alot of extreme....

i wish to see u..... i wish to talk to u.... i wish there was no wall between us.... i wish we could just repeat history.... i really have changed suddenly..... no beer.... no smokey.... i really am desperate.... i'm such a loser.... sometimes i wonder... did u really have to go n hurt me??

well grats to wong cheng hao n theresa cheong.... one is my tracker buddy cum classmate while the other is my *ahhem* cum classmate.... i wonder... if siewhong has a bf.... wat will i do seriously.... i wish to find out....

Labels: TO THE EXTREME

Monday, October 13, 2008

ok 1st day of sch today!!!! well i sort of fucked my sleeping time up lah.... i think insomnia has returned to me... did'nt slp until quite damn late..... then woke up fucking late.... then mum fetched me to sch.... then met pravin khidir nasri.... as usual smoking =) lols i declined a stick sia.... see i got such will power haha.. then met aaron n went for Computer programming course.... quite easy to do lei.... wonder how ppl fail.... haha then after that went for CRS class.... for those who dont know...



CRITICAL REASONING SKILLS!..... its a sub module..... then teacher rmbed each of us by the question we ask.... n i kena called Mr Dota..... zzzzz i rather be called Mok lor..... ah well then we went for Eng Maths 1.... actually the teachers name in the paper was some long fuck who will troubles writing his name on o lvl paper everytime but ended up we called him Dr Ram.... lols his name is like so fucking long lah.....

then on the way alan called me go play abit of pool... made a quick trip to mambo since on the way hoome n thrashed him 9-3 str8 n 5-0 at 8 ball played it damn fast... then now i'm gg to slp lack of slp sia fuck

if one msg is so hard... i dont know wat to do.... i just wana pass smth to u n hope it happens... thats all... either way its good for me i guess...



then 1pm lesson ended follow the guys to koufu did'nt eat anything

Labels: Insomnia Is Back

Sunday, October 12, 2008

ok time for some update..... erm ytd morning was supposed to go out with mum cuz she needa buy stuff for the hong kong trip then everybody nvr go only she go.... i feel so bad then she went off to suntec alone.... then i woke up quite late abt 2?? slacked at home lor played some TD n stuff before went to meet the bros to eat.... then met leo n we went mambo play awhile only haha.... then dm sj py came.... went to toh yi market they ate while i ran to justin hse to take movie haha =) took a few new movies also =) haha then we went to meet the rest before they came my hse to mahjong....

well we mahjong abit only i dono why ytd i felt abit siao.... 5 double zhi mo.... i suddenly say " SUA LAH NO NEED PAY" zzzzzz i like that say bye bye $10 sia lols..... haha well then ok lah on n off mahjong dota..... then ben n wei jie came n justin went home..... ben slept halfway n weijie also.... then we played drinking game..... then suddenly the house become so noisy.....

SJ:" ok ah 10... catergories horhx...."
Dm: yea
SJ: ok sea creature from leo that side....
then suddenly after awhile...
Leo: PORCUPINE....
LOLS..... porcupine??? then dm make us laugh until we wana cry sia..... then most suay one is me leo n sj lor.... dm drink so little only.... sumore i no toilet card cannot go toilet pcb...

lols then they went to slp n i dota..... they went home soon after i go slp....

well ytd smth happened ah.... a bro that was sleeping..... suddenly.... said "*name*" a few times in his sleep then we all kena scared sia.... i know once i awhile i will also say her name.... cuz my bro caught it.... but wat does it actually mean? that even our sub conscious wan it so much?? haiix i feel like msging her.... but whenever a reply dont come... i will feel more sian.... but i miss her... i wana talk to her.... wat to do?? LL lor..... well sch is reopening tmr haiix finally nerd AhMok beginning.... if u guys find me boring pls tell me.... cuz i think i will have no life....

Labels: Nerd AhMok Beginning....

Friday, October 10, 2008

ok ytd night went to changi airport to send my daddy off to china lols he's gg until wed then come back liao nxt day going hong kong with family.... means 2 days of no sch weeee to my poly frends that read this help me report in sick if teacher ask where i go =) lols i feel like such an asshole.... then was talking to mummy then she out of the blue asked a convo....

Mum:" eh nick"
Me"???"
Mum" so how? siewhong got boyfrend anot??"
Me" how i know? i think no??"
Mum"k good"

i'm like huh? good? why?? she went to to see some chinese guy abt my 8 characters n got told almost everything.... from wealth to studies n love.... but she nvr told me the love part of it.... i wonder.... ah fuck it lah for me they say nxt year i cant gamble cuz i will lose alot of money... n i need to study hard becuz its gg to be hard for me.... so yea then went home dota n slept...

today woke up went bkfast with mum then she drop me off at jurong cpf building while she go buy stuff then they said i can only get my pay nxt week =( but fast enuff ler haha then she dropped me off at temask club n went to fetch my sis.... so i play 3hrs of pool!!! lols n it costed me $9 only lols haha well can say i think i'm getting stagnant for pool..... then i went home slept awhile... leo called me go beauty world.... then play ABIT of pool... haha then he go collect pants with dm then we go timah market eat n now i'm home!!! lols tired sial today.... tmr mahjong time!! wish me luck... just wondering shd i wear my lucky charm mah?? but its the ring with her name on it lols.....

i just wish to talk to u..... i dont know why i'm so despo.... i just wana talk to u.... thats all i really ask for..... i know from talking it can lead to another..... but if i really have to decide.... i just cant do it quietly.....

Labels: One Day I Can Be A Pool Pro.... One Fine Day

Thursday, October 9, 2008

ok very long nvr update so lets see wat happened these few days.....

Sunday

go gym with aaron siva then went jacuzi then go jec eat kfc then play pool but siva left n jec all the ppl so rude... zzzz i was leading aaron 4-0 but ended up he win 5-4 lolol i suck man.... then went to find leo for another round of pool then i won 9-8 heng sia....

monday working

ytd i went back to sch with adnan to register the modules n i got IT law zzzzzz but at least he n me same course..... then we play pool then go westmall BK eat then he go buy present for gf then i went to play pool at mambo with leo.... kena thrashed by him.... lolol....

am i that stupid to think that we can still be tgt?? i dont know?? hope i'm not.... i dono wat to do with my life now.... so plain.... i really miss her... that smile.... that comforting voice.... everything abt her.... just her..... haiix siewhong even if its that small a chance i will wan it....

Labels: Even If Its That Small A Chance....

Thursday, October 2, 2008

today is gg to be a long post.... not abt the things i did in 1 day... but more of the feelings that i had all of a sudden..... let me back track abit abt my life.... if u dont wana read then go shoo

6th june.....

wat seemed like an ordinary day for u all.... was actually the day which i cried in front of a girl for the 1st time.... my heart broke into pieces..... if only i was not forced into it....she was so that perfect for me.... yea she is.... even till now....

1 month on.....

i suffered from insomnia.... could'nt get sleep every night... most of the poly guys would know.... i would sleep abt 4 n wake up at 6.... still every night my mind will just think of her.... how she is.... wat she's doing.... i tried to get her back.... but it seems she had lost all the feelings within a month....

2 months on....

i just could'nt forget her.... i wished to see her everyday..... i tried to forget her.... but even my sub consious wont let me.... never in my life have i been so crazy abt a girl.... i kept dreaming of her..... even in light naps i would still dream of her.... i would even stay awake until the night cuz i know she's doing night study.... jus to ask her stuff.... part of the convo...

AhMok: have i ever let u down?
SH: No....
AhMok: then why cant give me that chance i want so much?
SH: becuz its just impossible between us....
AhMok: i nvr even finished that 1 month of chance u gave me....
SH: sry but i needa study.....

wat were u thinking then? seriously i cant even read ur mind suddenly.....

3 months on....

i finally met her after so long.... but i think it made her unhappy.... i went to collect my hp at town as they said my hp was finally repaired after 3 weeks..... i went to collect it the nxt day.... i heard they had a MI Mart at DG so i decided to drop by hoping to see her.... she was busy doing a buisness so i asked her to make for me a keychain with my name on it.... haiix that day was the happiest day for me..... it was the 1st day after so long i felt so happy.....

A few weeks later....

it was suddenly that i could talk to her.... i was so happy.... i wished the time would stop.... but over time she ignored me.... on n off msging..... i felt so happy when i could talk to her... but feel confused whenever i dont get a reply..... even just a simple reply like " sry i'm busy studying" i just feel so happy.... i sound like a loser.... maybe i am....

These few days.....

these few days she had her promos exam.... i dont know why.... but suddenly my mind heart n sould keeps telling me she has changed..... n i wish that i would get this chance to see the new her to get to know her... if she's the one still.... if not i guess its not fate?? i msged her these just now but i did'nt get a reply.... i suddenly felt like crying.... i have no beer to drink.... i think i would'nt be slping so early tonight.... and to think i even gave the stupid chain email a try.... haiix i'm despo for her.... i guess the real loser is me.... i have so many things unsaid n i only wish to say them to her.....

RIP 28 March 2007 - 6 June 2008

Till Today I Still Love You.... I'm Crazy Over You... I Know I'm Such A Irritating Asshole To You... But Becuz I Love You Too Much... I Did'nt Want You To Be Sad... I Had To Make The Sacrifice For You.... Just Becuz Of You....

Becuz The Person I Hated Once Said " If You Really Love Someone... She Has To Be Happy Even If It Means Sacrificing Ur Own Happiness"

But Now I Wish I Had A Chance.... No Matter How Small.... I Will Still Take It....

If only I Had Held On That Day... If.....

*PS*.... if u ever come across this blog i just hope a simple tag is enuff....

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Wednesday, October 1, 2008

lols lets update for today!!! well nvr sleep lor cuz follow leo go changed his sandals..... then met teck also.... then at the NUM shop this happened.....

Boss: erm sry but once u change i needa keep the recite....
teck: if her size cannot how?? u also nvr bring lei....
AhMok: LAN LAN LOR

seems like i got the habit from leo lah ytd night keep saying LAN LAN lor....

then me leo go makan lunch.... knn the zai fan $6!!! WTF!!!! but not bad bah i guess... but not worth the money.... zzzzz then we wanted play pool then go the marina there.... $10/hr for member.... $12 for public.... i over there Wtf.... LAN LAN lor.... lols then we ended up gg century play.... won 9-2 but lost 8 ball game haha

then could'nt meet mx cuz she wanted to talk.... stress sia she... o lvl lololol i later needa go see hse!!! but at batok lols haha mx say haiix so suay cant stay near her n hope to see her....

sometimes i wonder... if i see her with another guy.... wat will happen to me.... wat will seriously happen to me.... i really wish to know? will i snap like wat i did in my dream or just act cool n go up n say good luck??? haiix siewhong wat were u thinking back then??

EDIT: met mx just now n we talked.... then heard her story.... very similar to the case which is above this paragraph... but for her it happened in real life.... so ytd she was crying.... if i had met her my shirt can squeeze out water ler.... everytime girl call me is chat abt sad stuff.... why!!!! haiix then she went home n i watched pool on computer....

then was wondering.... shd i go n take private pool lessons?? will i kope?? n i needa drink beer soon!!! seems like shi jie n ben can only pei me cuz leo wana lose weight! lolol as for poly side i think i can only call aaron?? cuz the rest are non-alcholics....

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ok back from thonning......

morning went to cut my hair!! zzz damn short now as short as in sec 4 i guess?? then met teck teck go NUM buy praia sandals ended up i buy 3 he buy 1 cuz i buy 1 for myself n leo.... then after that go meet leo pass him his havaianas....

ok ytd evening go sj hse then me leo ben shijie damian peiyun go makan at timah market.... i reach sj hse they machiam got orgy inside so many ppl on the bed.... lolol then i we go timah eat i ate beer hor fan then they ordered satay n kang kong to eat + their stuff..... then after that we go century play pool..... well it seems my good bro damian has got abt 8L in his name.... thx me for putting half of it lolol.... then leo thrashed me.... bully me der T_T hahaha then weijie came n play 1 round n we went off.... heavy rain outside lor then ben suddenly high n withdraw money enuff to DRINK 100 cups of kopi-0 lolol haha then we outside shop n save talking wat to do nxt end up is thon at sj hse lor..... so leo n dm went home to take their stuff then me n ben n py go sj hse lor.....

go sj hse at night we played some drinking game.... but with PLAIN WATER.... lolol leo the most suay one.... ended up drinking 2 bottles n i drank a few cups?? lololol then we watched some movie which was supposed to have "sex" scene end up = waste time only 1 scene.... ZZZzzZZzzZz then we all go slp n woke up go home.....

siewhong sometimes i wish we could just talk.... i dono why but i feel like a loser now.... i'm not drunk cuz i only drank plain water but everytime i see you.... ur just that beautiful in my eyes.... even when u changed ur hairstyle.... i still find u pretty..... why? why? why? If only.... if..... haiix

Labels: If Only..... If.....

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