Sunday, March 29, 2009
Some Things Set Me Thinking
Some People Set Me Wondering
oh well today did nth relax and relax and relax but i'm damn bored at home.... only looking forward to weekday so i can play my pool.... lols competition is on 25th and 26th april.... hope i dont lose all my brain cells on those 2 days....
ah well its time for me to really relax with no worries....
Fight on Sunday, March 29, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
28th March 2009..... well nth special happened today but still for those who know me since primary and secondary sch bros and sis.... 2 years ago it happened....
SO IF U THOUGHT I WILL EMO THROUGH THIS WHOLE FKING POST PLS THINK AGAIN!
well if WE had a choice i bet WE would'nt want it to happen right?.... you've moved on in life and have a new bf now... but that does'nt mean i havent moved on ok! wahahaha i'm just not ready to get into a r/s again. <--- not phobia of u wat u did to me. well sorry if i used the word WE just now but it only concerns the 2 of us. aiya u know what i mean lah sorry if i made it sounds so wrong =.=
anyway i think this will be the 1st post about you that will not spoil ur mood. <---- if u even read this blog that is...
hmm where should i start? i've done alot of horrible things in the past... things that pissed you off... made u cry... made u feel like slapping me across the face... ya all those things... well when i think back now i realize how immature i was in decision making.... i had a childish mind.... i was selfish in thinking... only thinking of myself and not for you... now when i type and think back at all these things i cant help but laugh to myself.... at how much i've changed....
back then i was drinking and smoking.... emo-ing and crying.... now looking back.... i still drink (occasionally) and smoke(social!!! not heavy) no dif but i'm not emo-ing and crying anymore.... i really laugh at myself last time and would'nt believe it was me...
looking back on my 1st few post of this blog i really saw how idiotic i was to you... really i wonder if it was even you that tolerated my nonsense well i'm sorry for all i did to you in the past... i really am
well times have changed.... you have changed and so have i.... ur attached with ur MI tracker and i'm attached to my pool cue =) you were right.... feelings would fade... if only i was'nt stubborn back then and just listen to you.... now i'm sure when you are thinking back... u would laugh as well... or maybe not?? cuz i know it was hell to you... sry =X
u know that day last year.... not the one 2 years ago... the one 3 days before aarti bday.... june 6th... i was so damn stubborn selfish igonarant and well wont even listen to anyone... not even you.... it really did'nt sink into my head until that day i gave u the slippers. or was it sandals?? aiya u know lah when u came with ur frend<---- ur bf now!! it was only then that i came to my senses... it took me a long time but i'm glad that day i met you.....
on the 25th january.... when i learned abt u and ur bf got tgt.... i did'nt cry or drink or smoke.... i had no feelings.... i just took up my phone and msg you grats wishing u all the best and that he would be better than me.... i'm sure he is better than me in personality.... his's figure is still okok BUT his leg muscle aint nice as mine.... but i'm sure he's better than me in every aspect... and dont tell ur bf abt this or else i wont be able to outrun him T_T
well i've known u for 4 years liao.... 3 years a good frend.... and a year being accquaintance... well i dont know if u still hate me or not but well hope we can be frends still.... i know i really screwed up everything in the past.... even being just frends i screwed it up.... i screwed up from being a bf to even a simple frend.... i screwed up almost half a year of irritating you to the max.... and this one i wont be laughing.... =(
recently i've been dreaming abt you.... not in a bad way nor good way but the dreams i had was in the present and we both are on good terms talking like our past did'nt hinder us anymore.... well i know it sounds stupid but well aarti said maybe it may come true?? well i hope i dont dream abt you anymore.... =X
well i know its quite extra writing all these things but ytd with aarti i was at a place where memories came back and i sat there thinking of things..... its not ur hse below but a place in clementi.... i thought of things how stupid i was in the past.... how foolish i was and things i did that really hurt you.... i bet now u wont reminicize the past and just laugh at it =) just like me or maybe not??...
when ur madly in love with someone i guess u would know how it feels.... that u would do anything to be with that somebody.... even being protective and go nuts to do things that usually people wont do.... i've learnt my lesson the hard way but i'm glad its better that way....
OK ENOUGH OF JOKES THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS POST IS....
Thank You Yong Siew Hong.... i've said thank you to you for all the things u've done for me before... but this thing you've done.... its the most valuable lesson i will ever learn from a r/s... Thanks For Everything..... hmmmm now i can imagine u getting upset.... dont know why.... but well its lucky that u dont give ppl second chances... if not i think i would still have that childish and immature attitude.... i took 1 hour to write up this post.... and now i'm finally going to put behind the memories of what 2803/1649 this 8 numbers represent behind me and carry on with my life...
My Tagbord is there for u to leave a comment...
I Still Have Alot To Say To You
But If U Treat Me As A Frend I Guess The Following Sentances Would'nt Spoil Ur Day
I'm Still Waiting For You To Prove Me Wrong Abt What I Said To You When You Went MI
Labels: Change Is The Only Constant
Fight on Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
hmmm back from trg!!! wahahaha today was a very fun and event-ful day.... 1stly i met aarti!!! weeee so damn bloody long nvr see her and we crap and crap and crap and crap and crap and crap and found out alot of stuff!!! like abt siewhong.... ya now i say siewhong instead of her liao.... so just found out some stuff abt her.... bla bla bla
But still there is one fact is must disagree with u all.... the bf is fking fit.... the body figure is like heavenly not bad lah just that his legs less sexier than mine but the upper body is nice wat..... ok point proven well ya lor.... then i went off for trg....
at trg i tot i would get scolded for doing rubbish notes but before reading my book coach told me " the notes is wat u understand by wat i teach u" then the after reading he told me " ur notes ah is for reference... the day i die u go write one book cfm top seller one" i over there =.= then he asked me join SPGG 9-ball competition.... actually he forced everybody to join lah bo pian.... i only hope my group dont get my seniors i happy liao....
the i played poker!! 1st hand i knock out somebody he all in i follow =) but overall only lasted till last 3 and coach won.... saded weeeeeeee anyway had fun and played till 11pm with hong wei....
2 years ago something happened.... guess most people would know.... but today is the 27th march not the 28th of march.... so lets save the nxt post till tmr....
Labels: The Best Has Yet To Come
Fight on Friday, March 27, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Screw This
Screw It
Screw Tarek
Screw Myself
Labels: Screw The Wall
Fight on Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
WoWoWoW slept at 12mn ytd woke up at 6am today..... this type of life reminds me of sch boys life.... LOLS also known as NO LIFE.... ok anyway went sch for pool today just to practice my drills and i just realize table 1 at SPGG pool has the smaller pockets and table 6 has the biggest pockets....
haha anyway when coach came i thought he was gona screw me for not coming on friday but end up his first sentance was " eh so where did u lose to 40+ year old aunties" then i was like erm " how u know?" he say he know mah from forums.... then ya lor he said if i wana join just the pub tournement just tell him.... then i was erm let me consider 1st.... cuz its a 8-ball race to 2.... but despite that i have a free beer and if i win all my 3 matches i get a jug free =).... wahahahaha
then on the way home on 173 i saw pera... my best frend from primary sch... LOLS knew that guy abt 9 years already?? haha then we talk and talk and talk =) then he zao liao and home sweet home
Labels: Just Wondering... Just
Fight on Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
hmmm i've not been a regular updater again... due to some things that are quite affecting me...
1st is my pool training.... long tiring and the journey is damn long....
2nd is my life....
well today was a long and tiring day for me.... 1stly SJ came over ytd and help me with my WoW pvt server.... then we thonned till 9am and slept till 1pm.... cui ah
then met ben at panjang sheng shiong and we bought BBQ stuff and head to leo hse.... then back to SJ hse... then we forgot abt some items then we chiong back to leo hse and back to SJ hse... lame right? ok then SJ did his work then we cabbed back to leo hse with the satays wahahaha so eventually....
Leo And his bro, damian, ben, justin , liting,meixuan and sharon came.... damn long nvr see sharon and she still looked the same... haha so yea as liting went off me and SJ went to buy 1 bottle of beer each.... well sounds no kick right?? but seriously for the 1st time 1 shot down whole bottle got kick sia.... ok SJ 1 shot down.... i 3/4 down i spilled the beer on my shirt cuz i was too bloated and chiong.... but seriously got abit of kick sia.... haha
then after that the guys were talking abt AHERM AHERM..... yea non of my buisness.... i just sit there and listen only then we went leo hse relax relax then went home....
to dream of u for 1 week is smth i keep thinking abt.... even when i thought a mere 2 hour sleep u would not appear but yet again in my dreams u did.... wtf is wrong with me?? Everytime i dream of u... we are on good terms not in the past nor the future but the present.... i know i would'nt be able to communicate with u anymore.... but why do i have all these dreams? not once.... not twice but one whole fking week already!!
Labels: Its Been A Week Already
Fight on Sunday, March 22, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Happy Belated Birthday Mei Xuan!!
Happy Birthday Bro Damian!!
Both 18 liao lei! and they drink liqour legally lor haha my turn is nxt haha so anyway we'll be going to celebrate damian bday later at taka seoul garden and mahjong with liting mei xuan wei jie later =)
haha wats worse is today thon then tmr morning 10.30 i gtg cut my hair at china town and meet up with aarti and eliza for lunch... damn long nvr catch up with these 2 sisters of mine liao haha will update more tmr
BUT FOR NOW....
in reality i try to forget... and when i do... u suddenly show up in my dreams again.... this time not on and off.... BUT EVERY SINGLE dream i had for the last 5 days.... can someone tell me wat does dream represent?? some say its the future? some say its wat ur heart desires the most? others will just merely say its some cock up thing out of no where? but then again i really dont know wat to do now... if i could i would like to dream forever... can i ever have a dream that can tell me who my nxt gf is going to be? haiix seriously wats wrong with me??
Labels: For The Last 5 Days Its All About You
Fight on Thursday, March 19, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Module Code - Credit Unit - Grade
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ST504B - 2 - C
SP0501 - 2 - A
MS6121 - 4 - B
EE3115 - 4 - B+
MS6506 - 4 - B+
LC0518 - 2 - C
MM1401 - 4 - C+
MM1305 - 4 - C+
SEMESTER GPA: 3
CUMULATIVE GPA: 2.886
ALLOWED TO CONTINUE IN THE COURSE
Short of 0.2 of wat i hope.... but still happy with a 3.0...
Labels: Is What I Want Really That Hard To Get?
Fight on Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
TMR IS RESULTS DAY FK FK FK!!! i really hope i will do okok.... dont repeat any module is enuff for me ler.... and hope DME/1A/21 is still a class.... ok nth to post liao..... seriously worried for results
Labels: DoomsDay Is Near
Fight on Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Am I So Obsessed Over You?
Or Is It Something else?
Why Do I Still Bother About You
To Know That It Wont Come Back
What Goes Around This Time
Wont Ever Come Around The Next Time
What I Do Now
Is What I Will Regret Next
Well Mum is gg overseas tue to sunday.... but i got no gf to bring home T_T wahahaha ok screw it
Fight on Saturday, March 14, 2009
Friday, March 13, 2009
hmmm today was a very fruitful day for me!!! wahahahaha
ok afternoon i went lunch with cynthia.... damn long meet up with her ler.... and i to think i know for almost 6 years liao wahahahaha <---- same class since sec 1 mah haha then we talked and saw cheng hao!! haha then we continued talking then she went find melvin and i went off to school....
3hrs early for pool training man how nice but then coach was already there.... LOL haha then i relax relax and at 5pm he told me " i'm gg to teach u the stun shot, by 6pm u must be able to stun it over half a table distance...." i was like erm ok... but even by 7pm i did'nt get it... how nice.... LOLS then the couple came.... rmb the chio gal and the guy?? ya they both inside SPGG pool... then coach asked me play with the guy and i won!!! 6-4 haha
then coach taught me diamond system for 1 rail and corrected all my playing ways.... like stroking standing and alot of stuff lah.... then before i went off he told me smth: " modules 1 and 2 training are compulsary.... but if u wana learn module 3 and higher i will see if ur capable of learning it becuz its meant for national players....." then i was like tio stun.... haha still slowly but surely i train and train and train until i become pro....
then before i left i saw sgp top player Bernard Tay.... i was like tio stun wtf... the aura from him.... deadly sia.... haha then that concludes my day.... pretty much training for 7hrs lols!! my left hand now very nua liao on the verge of gg into cramp T_T.....
Philip my pool coach reminds me of Mr Tham my track coach... why? cuz of the way they scold ppl.... just that philips vocab is much more than thams haha but i'm sure if i wan it. He can help me... cuz he told me if i wana be a national player i just gt to tahan his scoldings... LOLS
Fight on Friday, March 13, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
WoWoWoW i missed my 1st trg on tue.... how i know?? of course tio scolded by coach today lah.... kns still got so many admin stuff needa do lor.... every month must pay $30 for usage of table and keeping my cues there.... but shiok man!!!....
tue friday trg 6-10pm omg man damn late wahahaha but fun mah getta do basic trg haha..... BASIC training lei omg i dont know why but i'm so happy lols aiya fk lah chee bye tmr training but makaning with cynthia in the afternoon! haha damn long nvr see her liao....
Labels: So Many Admin Stuff Needa Do For Pool
Fight on Thursday, March 12, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
AhMok Has Lost His Balls To Do Anything
Fight on Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
The Imagination: To Be With You
The Reality: It Will Never Happen
Lightning dont strike the same spot twice am i right??
The Heart yearns for you
But
My Mind tells me otherwise
However
My body is refusing to do anything
Thats Why
I AM SO FKING CONFUSED NOW
Labels: It Will Never Happen In Reality
Fight on Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
BACK FROM CHALET!!! haha ok i was back abt 11am but tired mah then just woke up....
so well the chalet was like this.... we all met up at tampines at 1.30 but sadly me aaron siva justin nasri reached at 2pm but xy joshua ck hong jie khidir waited for us.... so i went to buy beer 6 pac and 1 packet ciggy... then we took bus 29 there.... we met up with boss pravin yk and checked in to the chalet....
so basically only aaron siva justin xy joshua ck hong jie nasri pravin yk khidir haikel came for the chalet... so we all started playing cards each of us did seperate things.... then some of them went to changi village to rent bikes and buy some food for us... while me justin yk ck haikel was playing dai dee and hearts and poker i won the most!! haha $4 only.... then we started bbq-ing but so did the rain.... then we only started bbqing at 7 and it was already quite successful as it lasted damn long....
The Class
At the Start
then at night we played some games like charades, mafia, animal game, all those games that ppl would play 10 years ago?? but it was fun!!! haha had tons of laughter and sabo-ing.... then 2am came we started drinking!! oh yea we played up down game and drink damn fast.... my stomach was ok then but after the 4th jug?? my stomach suddenly had the burning sensation so i went to rest awhile while the rest of them went to OCH....
half way through....
so i was resting when suddenly siva justin came back in a rush and said that pravin was possessed... at 1st i quite believed it but when pravin came back he was just high from the vodka... siva really mis-understood his prayers at changi for some major possesion act and caused the whole chalet to freak out....
GONERS haha
but well its quite fun.... i slept for 2hrs but on and off i had to go shit.... dono wats wrong with me today..... my asshole hurts alot man.... haha then yea we went off checked out and when we were waiting for bus i had the urge to shit so my mum who was nearby came to pick me up and i went to shit in a 5 star hotel type of toilet... HEAVENLY!!! haha then came home and sleep haha
lastly i wanted to thank boss for organising such a chalet single handedly.... thx boss!!!
this is my last paragraph.... i actually still quite like the girl which i know i have no chance to be with her.... so ppl would only narrow down to 2 ppl..... but then again when i drink i still kept thinking of her.... i did'nt know why..... its her smile that i kept thinking of.... still wondering who?? if u wana make it clearer.... now i know that bros would always have the same thinking and somehow u know we are just waiting for something that may not even happen.... right SJ?
Fight on Friday, March 06, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
my game is getting from bad to worse..... oh well its just ups and down.... sometimes i can clear the table when i get the chance sometimes i cant even shoot in straight shots.... wtf man.... RAWR.... anyway returned ryan his break cue.... heng he nvr ask me tournement how but he would have known i kena kick out.... haha results on the forums wat.... zzzz
sometimes when i reminisce the past.... i just feel that i cant love another girl again..... i dont know why.... just feel that i'm not fully prepared to devoted my time and love and more importantly money to my gf.... ah well life's nvr fair.... if life was fair i would have been given a 2nd chance.... if life was fair i would be born free from illness.... if life was fair i would drink and drink and drink and wont suffer liver cancer..... looks like i'm straying off topic here but before i go.... would u guys wan a hot girl but intrest and ur expectation is different from wat u wan?? or an ugly girl but intrest and expectation is the same as you?? when i mean expectation it means like i wan a english speaking able to hong me and do many thing.... oh well i think u guys wont understand as well.... neither do i... =)
Labels: From Bad To Worse
Fight on Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
today was pool day for me!! wahahaha 10am to 6pm pool pool pool.... ok i'm gg nuts liao.... haha but it was fun.... played with samantha a match and won 7-3 haha was 5-0 then 5-3 then 7-3 haha.... anyway class chalet is coming and i'm like erm erm erm.... well guys that know me should know lah horhx!! haha....
today i see so many chio bu!!! but horhx with a big pimple on my face they will reply me " eh fk up lah chee bye" haha anyway lifes back to training training training now..... haha march 18th.... results day!! wahahahaha
Fight on Monday, March 02, 2009
